Coincidence or Providence?

So last night we had the first of our FOCUS Bible Studies. Upon revealing that I was a senior, much to the surprise of a couple of the guys that were present (I'm not sure how old they thought I was...I was afraid to ask.), one of the kids, somewhat cautiously asked me 'what I wanted to do.'

I told him that I was studying Chemical Engineering, but planned on walking away from my degree once I was graduated (a somewhat light-hearted response I like to employ). He prompted me to go further...to actually explain what it was that I planned to do instead.

So I replied that I was pretty sure I was applying for seminary.

He jumped up and yelled, "I KNEW IT!!! I COULD JUST TELL!"

Seeing as I was just sitting there (in sweatpants, no less) talking completely normally, I was a little surprised at his surety. Nevertheless, I couldn't help but smile at his response.

I don't know what it was about me that had "possible future seminarian" written across my forehead, but regardless, I felt honored to even give off that impression. I've known quite a few seminarians in my day, and they have been without exception some of the most honorable Christian men I know.

Falling off the Wagon...

I predicted this would happen. I come back to school and I get slammed with 'stuff.' Granted, at this point in the semester, I don't even have that much homework. That's quickly changing, especially given that I'm in my senior Design class that is sure to kill me because of all the work (the professor even acknowledges that).

I've been busy with a whole bunch of other things. A friend and I have already started work on the Koinonia retreat that we'll be leading in February. Service Team and OXE meetings, FOCUS Bible Study, and choir practice have already started. On top of that, I started spiritual direction this week. That was quite an experience. Hopefully I'll get a chance to post about spiritual direction later in the semester...we'll see about that.

But for now, suffice it to say that I'm quite busy. Blogging will be a welcome relief to such a busy semester, but prayer and Mass are most definitely my first priority (alongside my student duties). For now, though, I figured I'd at least say hello!

Oh, in the midst of catching up with some blogs I follow, I've read a few posts from a fellow Totus Tuus missionary from this summer. He has a pretty amazing outlook on things, so I'd recommend checking out his blog.

That's all for now! God Bless!

It's Great To Be Back!

I love being back in Champaign! After an intensely long move-in process to my new apartment (which I also really like), I got the opportunity to return to Newman after long last. It was exactly what I needed. I love being surrounded by the positive atmosphere of people who share my faith. I've noticed in the past few years of my life that the friendships I have that are built on or around Christ are the strongest friendships I've had. And for good reason.

This summer, through Totus Tuus, we taught the older kids what a virtuous friend is. It's pretty much exactly what it sounds like: a relationship whose ultimate goal is to achieve heaven for both parties. Pretty sweet. 'Virtuous friends' are definitely the people that I feel I am most connecting with at present, and I have no doubt that they will be an important part of my future faith journey.

As an extreme people-person, a huge part of my discernment process has been that of figuring out where I could use my talents to help people. Through some great conversation tonight with a great friend of mine, I'm struck with thought about how appealing a life of evangelization truly is. Upon telling him of my experiences this summer, I was overwhelmed with a feeling of joy at the thought of a room full of fully attentive junior high and high schoolers listening to you talk about God--and then asking questions! Seeing that light go on in someone's mind is an experience I cannot begin to explain, but it's certainly one that I wouldn't mind dedicating my life to. More often, I find myself thinking: "We are the Church Militant, let us be soldiers for Christ."

What have we done on the battlefield lately?

Senior year is going to be one of the most rewardingly challenging and enjoyable years of my life thus far. Godspeed to all, and let's take the world by storm.

I Love Quotes.

The other day, I found myself watching Sister Act (and Sister Act 2: Back in the Habit). Despite the fact that I watched both of these movies a mere 3 months ago, I couldn't help but want to watch them again. If you've never watched them, you should. They're not spectacular movies, but I find myself drawn to that type of innocent, musical, uplifting humor.

One line caught my attention in the second movie (okay, like 400 lines caught my attention, but this one had meaning): "If you wanna be somebody, if you wanna go somewhere, you better wake up and pay attention." How true. In today's world, you better hit the ground running, or you're more than likely going to get run over. But that's not what I found interesting. There's something a little deeper there, at least I think.

God is a reality in this world. Whether or not you want to admit it, He's there, and He'd love for us to acknowledge that. The line, quoted above, seemed to me like more of a calling. "If you wanna be somebody, if you wanna go somewhere, you better wake up and pay attention." We're all called to be saints--holy men and women of God. If we want to end up sharing in the eternal life promised us by God, then perhaps we should step up and pay attention to what shelf we placed God on. Perhaps you should consider this: God's the bookshelf, not something to be placed on it.

Today I watched Letters to God. The movie was pretty predictably cheesy and cliche (How do you make this thing do accents?). But overall, the meaning was there. I could talk about the movie, but again I'd like to highlight a quote that I heard in (of all things) the previews. It said: "God doesn't expect you to be successful, just faithful."

Again, how true. We're quite obsessed with the perception of success in our lives--more specifically, others' perception of our success in our lives. But the ultimate test of our life is not how much money we earned or whether or not we've gotten some kick-ass job that will make everyone else envious. While I find even myself thinking about what my monetary situation will be like after school, I remind myself that God doesn't call everyone to that million-dollar profession. During my car ride to Ohio, I was talking to my cousin about what she would like to do for a living. She's changed majors (who hasn't?), and she's being pressured to choose the money-making job over what she thinks might otherwise make her happy. What a shame. Nevertheless, it's a pressure we all face. It's a real disappointment that we cannot put aside our concerns about money and success and think about what really matters: our faith. Try not being successful if you've followed Christ throughout your whole life. While society might not consider your life a success, I guarantee, you'll end up the victor.

My brother and I will be driving to Tulsa, Oklahoma tomorrow for the wake of Andrew Dever. Please pray for our safe travels (it's a 7-hour drive and we'll be returning after spending only a couple of hours in Tulsa). Pray also for Andrew and his family in these difficult times. Letters to God was successful in provoking several strong emotions within me: one of which is how extremely difficult it must be to watch your child suffer or die. We must only rely on God for comfort.

R.I.P. Andrew Scott Dever

Please join me in praying for the repose of the soul of Andrew Scott Dever. Andrew was a dear friend of my brother's, who attended Conception Seminary College alongside him for several years. He passed away Saturday from causes yet unknown. Needless to say, his death was tragic and unexpected, as any 29 year-old's death would be. Rest in peace, dear brother, and may the light of Christ shine on you now and always.

"Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest..." -Mt. 11:28

I'm Back!

On a positive note, I'm back in Illinois and very much enjoyed my time visiting my cousin in Cleveland. Her apartment is right on the lake and has a beautiful view of downtown as viewed from across Lake Eerie. We also saw Dinner for Schmucks with one of my favorite actors, Steve Carell. It was incredibly funny, which frankly far exceeded my expectations of the movie. I'm almost positive that part of the hilarity of the movie was the fact that I saw it with my cousins and my brother; let's face it, not a single on of us can keep from busting up laughing at the slightest thing, so putting the four of us in a dark movie theater watching Steve Carell was bound to be an entertaining experience.

I'm excited to have a few more days of rest before I go back to school, but I am more than excited to get back. More and more frequently I find myself pacing around my house hoping for something exciting to do. Now at least in the next few days that can hopefully lead to some productive packing. It's only a shame that I can't move in a little sooner so that I can actually enjoy a few days up there before those dreaded classes start....

Cleveland or Bust

I haven't posted in a couple of days. The reason is simple: my life is a little more boring while I'm at home. I enjoy my time at home, but there simply aren't 700 things pulling me 700 different ways like they do at school. And thus, there's not too much to write about.

I do have one (heh, at least) exciting thing on the horizon, though! Tomorrow, hopefully at a decent hour, my brother, my cousin, and I will be leaving for Cleveland, OH to see my other cousin! She's recently graduated from St. Louis College of Pharmacy with her PharmD and has moved on to a residency there in Cleveland. She told me that her apartment is right on Lake Eerie, so I have high hopes.

Seeing as I'll be in a different state, I probably won't be posting until next Monday, at the earliest. That being said, I probably won't have all that much to say even then.